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Live. Enjoy. Appreciate

One thing that I’ve learned from all these job rejections and rejections in general is to slow down. Why exactly am I rushing to work a 9-5 job? So I can make enough to start a family, to buy a house and car, to travel the world, and get a bunch of stuff, all to fulfill my happiness? Does money really make me happy? HECK YEA! But time makes me happier. I hate being rushed, and that’s how I feel with this process of landing a super job. I have to get a job soon, so I can follow the typical life timeline that I made up for myself. Yes, I blame myself for being so hard on myself too.

I thought that was happiness. It still is, but I’ve learned a different kind of happiness from rejections: living in the moment, enjoying the moment, appreciate the moment. Don’t worry yet, I still have life deadlines to meet for myself, but for now, I’m tire of beating up myself. I’m tire of feeling guilty, which is another reason why I’m not in a relationship. I just expect myself to be really good at it :P And if I’m not going to do it 200% and correctly, I don’t want in; like dude, I am saving all of us from heartbreaks and bullshit. Oh gosh, being hard on myself again. :D Choua, I love you, be nice to yourself.

I never really lived in the present. I was always busy planning ahead or just reflecting too much on the past. This is the reason why I love getting lost and making wrong turns, because the blessing in disguise was for the reasons I mentioned above. I love it when I accidentally don’t follow my schedule. I appreciate it when I wake up and accomplish nothing because my brain was fried all week, some people call it a break. Lastly, I enjoy my spontaneous moments, and those are really rare, but special :D.

No external links today. I want you to enjoy this entry. Alone. Get excited for New Year's Eveeeeeek!

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2014 has been an interesting year

January - Went to Vegas with Bao & the Lor sisters
February -
March - This finally arrived! :D
April - Coached tennis for the first time!
May - top braces came off && Started my own journey
June - Completed my first semester of grad school. Then it went on hold
July - Traveled to 15+ state parks to take photos for the DNR
August - Good byes are sad. Milwaukee State Fair for DNR booth.
September - Back to school, started at NTC
October - Started my new position at a university, one step closer to my dreams
November - Became more active in my blog and youtube channel (15-->70 :D)
December - Hmong New Years!

As I go into 2015, I will be letting these people go.
  1. There was a recent post I had on my facebook and someone commented on it. It had finally hit me how annoyed I was of that energy. I really don't recall any good words from this person. Anytime they commented on my things, it was just negativity. I believe in critical feedback, but it should be done privately, like dude, seriously, just private message me, instead of trolling on my post. I've never gone to their page and bash their posts, like, it's their life and it's my life. If my facebook posts are disturbing the peace in their life, they can just remove me from their newsfeed or save the both of us by unfriending me. BUTTT NO, they had the audacity to comment negativity in my posts. I was pretty unhappy by the time I made my post, and you want to make that cut? 
  2. I've let go of people who used me a long time ago and let me tell you, it feels great.
  3. It took me a while to let go of people who lacked respect, sensitivity, or sympathy for others. There was this person I knew and all we ever did was argue about nonsense. It took so much of my energy and that was when I let them go, sorry dude, I have things to work on than try to prove you wrong. You can go at your own pace to see where I'm coming from. I'm not a super caring person, but I think that if I hurt people more with my negativity then I rather just keep my opinion to myself. Seriously, if you have nothing nice to say, don't say anything. Unless you have a really important point to make, then maybe. But for the most part, keep your views to yourself, especially if it wasn't asked.
  4. People who hurt you do not deserve a spot in your life. I let mine go, you should too.
  5. Liars gonna lie.
  6. This is the reason why I have only 3 real friends.
  7. This is the reason why I am often on a solo mission :D
  8. This happens to many of us; you are who you hangout with. I had a group of friends that could drink a lot, so people thought I could drink as much, but I am not anything near a drinker. I'm the complete opposite. I go to the party, play card games, and ask for a water. My life is not worth getting drunk over and driving under the influence, oh great, I can go on a Hmong house party rant ... 
  9. The people who held me back were let go many times in my life. It may sound like a child move, but I don't need to surround myself with people who don't believe in me.
  10. When I was in high school, it felt like I had a ship for all the people in my life. As I got older, it became a lifeboat, exclusively for only a few people in my life. As I cut away ties, I also grew new ones too. As sad or selfish as it sounds, I want to have a connection with someone that I care for, believe in, and am willing to invest my energy on. It takes energy to come up with negative comments or any critical comments, and only a few people deserve that in life.
As you can see, I couldn't recall much accomplishments from Jan, Feb, Mar because I had a lot of toxic people in my life at those times. I ended 2014 with a lot of random things, met new people, and got closer to myself. I was able to get more things done because I put myself first. Some may call if selfish, but who else is going to love you more than yourself? I'm excited for what 2015 will bring in.

Post edit: The Minimalists also updated their 2014 year too. They sure worked hard this year because it motivated me to work on a lot of self-development. 

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Done. and Gone :D

“Once in awhile, right in the middle of an ordinary life, love gives us a fairy tale.” 
What are the chances that it happens right in a row, where you end a relationship and you thought you were done for life in cooperating with another individual, but something happens and neither one prepared? ...At least I wasn't. What I love about relationships is this glow to them; this light in the dark; this heart that races :P; just this thing that is truly indescribable.

You see it in their eyes. The way they look at each other. They way their hands clasp. They way they reach for each other as they walk to the store. The way she grips his arm. The way he puts his arm around her. Love is the way ... but I am done. and gone.

:P I'm just feeling cheesy! Winter break is over :( Not ready for real life yet.

The wedding photos were from a college friend of mine this summer. In fact, I've been to a few of them and I'll be going to more. Enjoy the rest of 2014. Oh yes, with 3 days left, I plan to do something crazy yet...at least crazy in my eyes. Stay tune :D

Oh and, I'm the girl on the left of the photo.

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Happy Holidays!

Happy holidays! I received a very special gift on Christmas day! This is one unique gift that took a lot of hours to give. Lee Chang finished the script we worked on. I hope you will enjoy this clip as much as I did. It’s not at its best yet.

Many people would prefer to share a piece they’re completely satisfied with, but I wanted to let everyone in on my ‘filming’ journey from beginning to the end. It’s not like I have 1000 subscribers :P, but when I do, they’ll be able to look back at where I started and improvements made over time. I mean, look at Nigahiga and WongFu’s first videos.

When Lee worked on this, he tried to make it mellow/serious, but it just didn’t match what was going on. I guess that’s because Mr. Neely and I are just really happy people (in the short and in real life). I can’t act as mellow as I write, check out Dear Love, if you haven’t. Of course, bloopers were added because we are just happy people like that. What's the plot? That's for another blog :D I don't want to rush myself and get it done right now because it won't have any soul and life to it, which is a really important for me when I write; my entries need to have life.

The short was filmed in four hours. As I watched some of WongFu’s behind the scene, they took several days to film one. Unfortunately, I don’t have those luxury and resources, but I am closer than when I began. That’s what you have to take out of every experience, you are closer, better, wiser. What you had only imagined came to life and you know how to be better next time. If you don’t ever start, you’ll never know your powers. I’ve heard others say, “Why don’t you just focus on getting good at one thing.” Well...yea, this is my focus to getting good at this one thing...so if I don’t start, how will be get good? Take my first MN Vlog for example, it wasn’t as good as the second one on the MKE HNY. I’m taking baby steps, and not everyone is the same. Some people are amazing and they can make those big leaps (like my sister’s first heart-touching entry). Ok, I don’t want to take too much of your time on Christmas day, so I’ll end here. I’ll do a BTW for the script on another day, even I need to go spend time with my family on this day :D


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VLOG - 2014-2015 Hmong New Year in Milwaukee, WI

So I finally realized why I’ve been quiet all these years. It’s because I’m usually thinking about something else. Who or whatever I’m with at the moment just doesn’t interest me, or my mind is already on something else, like this video! I spent about 6 hours editing it, more like 5 because I kept taking breaks too. Enjoy :D
Random, my boss is just amazing. I love her leadership and guidance so much. This is my estimated plan for blogging, vlogging, and couponing.

 Sun - Coupon Mon - Edits Tues - Blog Weds - Edits Thurs - Vlog Friday - Blog Sat - Vlog

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Validation

This weekend, I got to sit down with two singing contestants, Xee Tong & Jakie Chang, for an impromptu interview, which I also learned a lot about how to be properly prepared. There was something that they and I, even YOU, shared in common, validation. I was actually inspired about this topic from this funny video:

How could a girl that would never date me be the one that would validate me?
While ignoring an amazing girl, doesn’t that sound frickin crazy?

I applied that to other parts of my life. How could a job that would never hire me, be the one that validate me? I was just tired of feeling that way. I was tired of feeling like I wasn’t good. I was tired of:
Dear Choua,
We appreciate your interest in SOME.BS.JOB. at NOT POSSIBLE and the position of BULLCRAP for which you applied. After reviewing the applications, yours was not selected for further consideration.
The selection committee appreciates the time you invested in your application. We encourage you to apply for posted positions with our program in the future.
We wish you every personal and professional success with your career search and in the future. Thank you, again, for your interest in NOT POSSIBLE.
Sincerely,
Someone who didn’t even look at your resume to begin with and just needs to get this process over with
I was simply tired of getting rejected. As I got a chance to meet these two contestants in less than 10 minutes, I concluded that we owe it to ourselves to validate our strengths. I sensed that they both felt that they needed more support beyond their main support group. That's ok and ideal for anyone that’s working on anything, but I don’t think that’s necessary. But who am I to validate them on the positive side either?

If anything, I think we really need to put effort in what we live or work for. Do not let those 1 or 10 people validate that you’re not good enough. I believe that if we surround ourselves with positivity, we will overcome it. Don't hurry and tell me that you also need a mix of the bad for success either. You do, but only a small amount. Would you enjoy being around someone that tells you that you suck at life everyday? I believe that leads to low self-esteem, then depression, and ultimately suicide because it feels like shit. So if you enjoy being around negativity, be my guest. There's a difference between encouragement and just plain douche

For rising singers, artists, whoever, yes, start a youtube account. It doesn’t matter who’s listening or watching, yet. What matters is that you’re putting your efforts out there. As you continue to upload videos, you will improve...look at how ugly my guitar skills were; you can’t get worse than that! I will leave you with this quote, Rome wasn’t built overnight, so start working on your dreams. You have two choices: shut yourself down every time you think no one wants you and your talent, or push that aside and just do you.

Feel free to share about how you handle this feeling

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Relationships, call it Magic



(It’s Friday and on Fridays, I work at the IT lab to help with administrative duties. Also on Fridays, everyone leaves campus early, get where I’m going here? That means I have time to write. I’m debating if I should ask to leave work early and head out to Mad and MKE for the weekend. For now, I’ll continue a post I started.)

The reason why I decided to share parts of my life on the web is because I’m not in a relationship.

You see, when I was in one, my partner got all of this, stop thinking dirty. All of this is not physical, it’s the stories, the cheesiness, the random, the ugly, the good, the bad, everything in any partner. My partner was always my priority, and that was sadly kinda the mistake too, but that was the decision I made. I never shared stories/my daily stuff with just anyone and always saved it for them...because I’m cheesy to want them to be the only one who knows, ya know, thee-only-one kind of deal. In general, my life was very limited to my family, close friends, and partner.

Since I’m not in a relationship, I don’t have anyone to share my thoughts and ideas with anymore. Don’t suggest me to get in one either. Not being in one has shown me that it’s ok to share my thoughts with the world and not just limit myself to my partner. Sometimes I do feel and wonder, who is even reading? And most importantly, who even cares? Then the more important question, do I NEED THAT to function? LOL! I’ll leave that a mystery to all of us, including me self.

It used to be that a relationship was doable if the other person was willing to tango with me and vice versa. However, as I got older, it got more different, like a little more expectations and I didn’t want to tango on my end. It kind of matters after a while as you age.

At 16, I didn’t care if my partner was going to continue higher ed or not, who am I kidding? I didn’t know nothing myself; the blind leading the blind. As long as I finished high school, I didn’t even think about college. At 18, a job for financial income started to matter because I wanted to explore the world and love wasn’t going to provide fuel for that. Don’t mistaken a person that needs you to have a job to provide for them. A job for yourself just means pulling your own weight...so I encourage you to get a job if you don’t have one. If you have one, continue to climb the ladder to your ultimate position. By the time I was 20, I did so much and it mattered what my partner was kind of passionate about... feel strongly about... or have a bigger purpose for, ya know, dream. The problem with 20s something is that they act like they’re in retirement by that time, as if they’ve done enough. What exactly have you accomplished that you want to bum all day? Where have you gone? Do you like your situation?... It’s different for everyone, but that was my problem. I could never settle...I wasn’t ‘bored’ of a relationship, but I just felt like I stop growing when I got in one. At 22, it was important for me to make sure I find someone that was kinda the same like me, like going the same direction, motivation, having a positive view (like, IDGAF if you have to lie to me that you’re having a great time at a boring event; fake it til you make it. That’s for a different blog--venting about people who demands but don’t cooperate. GFY). Yes, I get that somedays you are going to call in sick on life, but I can’t be around people who call in sick 5/7 days!! I think my mom only calls in sick on life about 1/year...so you really need to get check if you’re calling in that often. :P Like that analogy? 

Now, even i’m confuse with the idea of being with another person. I hate reporting where I am at all times, even my mom doesn’t know! I hate feeling like I can’t have a conversation with the opposite gender, I’m not flirting or interested, I’m doing research. I hate dealing and running with another schedule, like dude, just go get your stuff done, then let me know when you’re free. And let me get my stuff done, and I’ll let you know when I’m free. I hate being on the phone for 3 hours, because we could seriously be doing something more productive. I just hate it all. Haters gonna hate :P 

But yes, I believe that that doesn't happen when you’re with the ‘right’ person, because that kind of relationship is literally, MAGIC. You both magically have time for each other. You both magically want to be at the same place. You both magically wake up with a smile on. You both magically laugh at the small things. You both magically enjoy each other. Before you start thinking that I’m going fantasy world here, I was really trying to say that people chose to make things work because each other matters.

I haven’t gave up on having a relationship yet, but those were my experiences. I can’t just blame the other person. I was just as guilty, I should’ve just never got in one in the first place. Why do you think I’m in this situation? And yes, I do and don’t like it, but I’m not going to drag anyone in the process of making that decision.

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Blog VS Vlog Vs Make up

I’ve been spending a lot of time vlogging because I just love my t5i so much. Blogging (B) and vlogging (V) have their pros and cons. Since I’ve been been doing both of those so much, I can’t even share my ideas on instagram anymore. I used to post 3-5 photos per day.

Time: VLOG wins
B: I’m more motivated to write my thoughts out, but it takes me more time. However, I don’t have to spend two hour + on editing.
V: My thoughts are out right away, however, I end up spending 1-2 hours editing the ‘ums’ and pauses. For a 5 minute video, I spend about 2 hours to cut, edit, add word, and so on. Not just that I rewatch the video over and over again. Those short 10 seconds I rewatch turns in minutes after a while

Action: BLOG wins
B: When I blog, I can write anywhere! I’ve written on napkins before and carry a pen with me like me father does. It’s easier to erase things I don’t like than to redo a scene.
V: I can’t always vlog instantly because I have to carry my gears around and that can be annoying on my end and weird for lookers. However, it receives more traffic.

Presentation: BLOG wins
B: When I blog, no one sees how I look. In fact, I was in in my sweats with smeared make up on Sunday when I edited the Green Bay videos.
V: I hate to admit it, but I only want to record when I look decent with a little makeup on. I can take photos without makeup, but come on, can someone really watch a 10 minute video of a girl that looks like this???!!

On the topic of presentation, this kind of makeup seems to be a trend these days. Could it be that by looking this way, we are imposing other intentions? I’m not saying that because anyone looks like this, they are the same as the article. But I’m saying that from the outside looking at someone with this kind of look, they may make that kind of correlation and be more attracted to the person with the make up….This can lead to other things for a different entry. 

I’m a victim myself. I’ve honestly tried to have this kind of makeup, and failed, only to truly realize that I thought I would be more attractive through that look, and failed. It’s a very beautiful and sexy look, but I’m starting to question myself behind my motivation of any kind of makeup. I am no make up guru, the worst ever. Next time you put makeup on, question your intentions behind it. Are you putting it on for yourself or for others?

Do get me wrong that I think everyone is a pornstar for looking this way because I am narrow minded like that. On a bigger scale, why do we have to feel a certain way when we don’t look a certain way? I’m just tire of feeling like I look really ‘shitty’ on days I choose to not put on makeup, and I am a makeup minimalists… Makeup is a very controversial topic.

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BTW: Dear Love

BTW (Behind the writing, kind of like behind-the-scene)

This was a big and scary step to share my blog to the fb groups I’m in. I received very different responses than what I intended, but they were great. I learned that I can’t assume people will know where I’m coming from, yes, no-brainer. But sometimes we do that where we don’t give all the info out and that can lead to misunderstanding and misconception of what I intended.

The letter started with fear, which is something most people have when it comes to a relationship. They’re scared, what if things go wrong? But what if things go right? :P. We often leave a relationship a little broken, yes, I’ve lied a few times that I was strong, but there were nights I felt the sharp pain of a thousand needles in my heart (some drama for you :P), whether I was the good or bad person. 

It appeared that the letter was a young, needy girl, which is half true. This piece was inspired by a relationship I was in during college and relationships in general. I felt like I asked for a lot, and I often think this way when I ponder about my relationship status. But I’ve come to realize that I really don’t, and people in general don’t. I only took the ‘expectation’ approach because I felt that was how others viewed me, so I decided to write the letter in that view. When in reality, none of my expectations were really ‘expectations’. Had I mentioned that the writer expect the man to provide her materialistic things, and do things he wouldn’t do, then I would consider those expectations. The things I mentioned were ‘expectations’ people should already be doing, especially if they are in a relationship with someone they care for.
  • When you’re a girl, it’s nice when a guy pays for dinner and picks you up, like the old ways, ya know? My close circle know that I am a pretty independent person (and that I am a crazy drive :P, which seems to be an ongoing them *oh gosh)
  • Warming hands just means that it’s important to share a physical connection. don’t get dirty now
  • Come on, who else hates driving? :P 
  • Running to the store was inspired by the beautiful relationships around me of couples who do those big and small acts of kindness. Pregnant women often have cravings and their partners would surprise them with sweets or whatever the crave was I've read these kinds of posts in my facebook newsfeed.
  • People shouldn’t cheat because they really cheat themselves
  • Respect is universal and goes both ways
  • We should be in relationships and aim to keep each other happy. Who wants to wake up everyday grumpy? And if you do, is that ok? If it’s not, fix it. If it is, then enjoy that feeling.
  • A relationship will have ups and down, and both people need to work on it. And I wasn’t the best candidate, but there is always room for growth.
  • I see that women often do the dishes/housework voluntarily and men often do not, which is something passed down and imposed, so I added the p.s. I believe both parties are responsible and should share the duties of a home, unless one really wants to do it or is picky about how things are done.
It may sound like a to-do list, but I just wanted to put a creative twist to it by turning it into a story within a letter. I thought I showed praise toward the man in parts of the letter, such as “look as good as you.” I didn’t make it clear that the woman will do the same because I believe that you are what you speak and do, not everyone is like that, of course. 

I could’ve took on a universal route and leave out the evidence that it was from a woman’s perspective to avoid gender preferences because Love and Lover can be anyone. However, I wanted to identify the writer as a woman to build a story and because I believe that they do not expect much from a relationship, but are seen that way. They want someone just as committed as them, but are seen that they always expect. Yes, not all women or men are like this. I missed other parts to the letter such as communication, compromise, cooperation, and many more. 

I’d love to hear what other parts you think is important in a relationship, or what you’ve done in your relationship to work, or not work. As always, thank you for reading the original letter and your reactions.

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Dear Love,

press play before reading to set the mood :D
Dear Love,

I was really scared of you, not because of you, but because of my expectations for you. I just don’t want you to fail and leave both of us heartbroken. But I’ve decided to tell you what I expect and it might be a lot. I'm serious, I’m going to expect you to do a lot for me.

I put on a tough-girl show, but I might expect you to pay for a few dates and maybe pick me up too. I’ve been hurt before, so I'm going to expect you to hold me if I ever cry because of how happy you make me. I hate the winter, so I expect you to warm my hands when they're cold. Carry me if I'm tire because I have to wear high heels to look as good as you. Drive us when we’re on the road because my driving won’t get us there. Maybe I’ll want your 2 cents once in a while if I really need it, because I’ve got things figured most of the time. I might expect you to run to the store in the middle of the night to get ice cream because I want to stay up all night and watch a movie, so you won’t have to deal with a moody me. Yes, I expect you to dress up for Halloween and Hmong New Year . On our monthly anniversaries, I am going to expect Raffaellos with a side of Kit-kat, or Twix (I still want the chocolate part of the Valentine's’ spirit). Save yourself the roses, maybe you should get something that lasts, like socks because it’s still cold in February. Maybe Valentines can be an exception for roses, so you can join the I-got-my-partner -flowers group. Don’t get a dozen either. Get one, because I am your only one and you are mine. Can you also play a song for me, please?

If my day is bad, I expect you to make me happy. When I am really bored, I expect you to entertain me with all your stories. I know you might also want to join the I-hate-photos club, but I am going to expect you to get a few good shots of us at these amazing times, so we can look back at how much we enjoyed each other when we’re old. Love, even if you might not be talented, can you pretend to be good at something? I guess pretending can be your talent, but don't pretend in this relationship. There is a difference. I expect you to be faithful. Know that when you cheat on me, you're cheating yourself more :P Do I really need to remind you to respect me? When you don't, you are pretty much disrespecting your mom, sisters, aunts, and all females in the world!

Love, some time during our relationship, I might not like you anymore, or you might not like me anymore, we might even be mean to each other, but I expect you to work on this with me. Finally, I expect you to love me and I hope that’s not too much I’m asking for. I may ask for a lot, but I know I can give just as much.

Love,
Lover

P.S. I expect you to help with the dishes.
“I love you not only for what you are, but for what I am when I am with you. I love you not only for what you have made of yourself, but for what you are making of me. I love you for the part of me that you bring out.” - Roy Croft

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What were my blogging fears?

Hello,

I've received a few good responses about my blog and I keep telling those people to start blogging too, because I want to know and learn about them also. I created this video about some of my blogging fears that prevented me from sharing it with the world and how I got rid of them. I'll just let you watch the video. At first, I didn't want to post every single video I made, but I think I'll start doing that. Enjoy the video and feel free to share your blog with me.

Cua

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Geeky Story

During my freshman year, I took a Global Perspective course at 9:30am. The teacher didn’t really teach and her exam was the opposite of the class lessons, but I stuck around until the end of the semester. We also had to do weekly online discussions, which was where I saw this ‘cool’ guy. I read his responses and I just thought he was kind of cool. I never had the guts to talk to him all semester (not the romantic way), which I don’t know why...Well, because I thought he was too cool and he wouldn’t acknowledge me and it would hurt my pride. self-esteem issues, I know, even I struggle with it.

After the semester was over, we walked past each other on campus and he said hi to me, asked how I did in the class, and even invited me to one of his games. We said bye and walked away. As I walked away, I was just like:
We became friends after and I then I remembered where I saw his name, other than the online class discussions. His name was in the newspaper often. I won't say which section, but it was there often. I found out he was on one of the school sports team, and that was when I was super high-schooled out, Is this real? This guy actually acknowledged me???!! I was surprised because I judged a book by its cover. Now I just hope he doesn't discover this entry about him, lol!

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What am I Jamming to?

Enjoy this video while I'm reading this

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Wildest Dreams


He said, "Let's get out of this town, Drive out of the city, away from the crowds."
I thought heaven can't help me now. Nothing lasts forever, but this is gonna take me down

Say you'll remember me standing in a nice dress, Staring at the sunset, babe,
Red lips and rosy cheeks, Say you'll see me again
Even if it's just in your wildest dreams, oh, wildest dreams, oh, ah.

I said, "No one has to know what we do," His hands are in my hair, his clothes are in my room
And his voice is a familiar sound, Nothing lasts forever but this is getting good now

You see me in hindsight, Tangled up with you all night
Burning it down, Someday when you leave me
I bet these memories, Follow you around

...I can still remember it all.
He left.
I knew why.
And I thought,
It can’t get worse than this.

We met when I was 18, then we met again when I was 21. I grew, learned, and matured so much in three years. At 18, he was interested. At 21, I was curious. At 18, I gave him butterflies. At 21, I felt them myself. At 18, I wore a summer dress with a smile on. At 21, my make up was smeared. At 18, the nights were so short. At 21, the nights couldn’t end any sooner. At 18, I had his heart. At 21, he ripped mine apart

I remember all the times I thought about him in the car. The long, awaited, short text messages. The uncertainty of where things were headed. I was good, too good to him. Not because he deserved it, but because of who I am.

Taylor Swift and I work out pretty good. She writes the songs. I write the story :P

This photo was taken in 2012 when my family went on a roadtrip that my sister planned out. We drove through Yellowstone National Park and through a storm.

For reading this far, let me entertain you with this video. I hope it'll give you a good laugh...or not. That video makes me miss my long hair, but this video makes me miss my short bob cut too. Watching that video again brought me back to a time when my partner didn't teach me the guitar when he played it. He also thought I didn't have the best vocal voice, which may be true, but even if it was true, that's something you lie through to your partner to help them get better at it. I'm not saying to give false hope, but at least be part of the solution. I mean, how do you go/stay in a relationship not wanting the best for your partner? Not wanting to help them. Not wanting to lift their spirits. Isn't that what we look for? Someone that believes in us when we can't even see the light at the end of the tunnel. He didn't teach me how to play (or believed I could), and I was determined to learn the guitar more than what I knew when I was with him. These were my moments of motivation. I'm not saying that I wanted to prove him wrong. I'm saying that it was a lesson well learned.

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Selling Hmong Scarves


These would make great Christmas presents for anyone! Email and paypal me at choua08@gmail.com if interested
$8/1 + $3 flat shipping fee
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Stay Tune


Hello Everyone,

This is the preview of the script that I’ve been working on with Lee Chang. If you haven’t seen it yet, click on it already! The first 15 seconds are pretty intriguing. Is it a movie? Is it a true story? What kind of story is it? Stay tune to see the whole story. This entry will be dedicated to the making of those 15 secs.

The script was inspired by true past events. It may sound like a unique experience, but I believe it’s a story that happens to all of us at one point of our life. It was 3am when I wrote the script and I couldn’t sleep that night, so I actually acted out my dialogue that same night. I shared it with just a few friends for feedbacks, but more for support that it was possible and if I was even funny. They thought it was pretty funny, so I gave it a shot.

Lee and I actually met prior to work on a different script, but I wasn’t prepared at all. I wrote the script four years ago and I wasn’t sure how to do the dialogue, so it didn’t happen because I didn’t feel strong about it. That one will come later. Maybe a day or two after I posted my monologue on youtube, along with directing the clip, I facebook messaged Lee. He’s always ready to go, so he asked me when I was free to film it. I told him I had to talk to find the main actor before we started. I had just met/hung out with Neely for about month, and I had a feeling he could play the role. I asked him and he said sure. This kind of worked out because he had access to the Hmong store. Even if it was someone else, I would’ve asked him to use the store anyway. Neely said sure. We set a time, met, and filmed it.

We started at NTC’s study room, cafeteria, and hallways. Neely and I have never acted before, so we just winged it. We did pretty good. The most take for a scene was probably five at the most. I asked Neely to pack three outfits, but we only switched our shirts. Overpacking lesson learned! Not just that, it was a lot of stuff to carry. We filmed around 4pm, so the campus was pretty empty by then. By 6, we almost didn’t shoot at the Hmong store because it was getting late, we were tired and the store was closing. ...BUTTT, we pulled through. Got to the store and filmed the remaining scenes in 30 minutes. The Hmong scene was important because it was the climax of the script. After we all went home, we remembered that we missed some scenes. Lesson learned!

That’s the big picture of the script. More details to come later as the video completes. Thank you for reading.

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