Good Bye 2019

What I want to work in 2020 is to stop wanting good for others and let them live their best life. Previously, I would talk people into what's good for them, and sometimes even get the things that's good for them. As a result, it was my fault either way. It's not that I no longer care, but I need to let people go after what they want and not what I see is good for them. I feel like I wanted to be appreciated for that; or that I wasn't appreciated enough; like there should be a song or award for my kindness. So I asked myself, did I do a "good deed" because I am actually kind or was it to receive some sort of reward/recognition? I felt frustrated that I was taken for granted and it's no one's fault I felt that way; they owed me nothing. To deal with that feeling, I decided that I will only give because I want absolutely nothing in return. Obviously, that was always my intention, but my subconscious wanted the recognition, so I am going to be very conscious of what I give, regardless if it's physically or mentally. I want to give in 2020 consciously for nothing in return. That's the life and story I want to tell and live with.

Thanks for tuning in. I wanted to keep this entry short.